I’ve always been shy, painfully shy, and even through college and after, it’s been difficult for me to approach a woman with the intent of asking her out for dinner, a movie, or just a simple walk through the park; there’s just something about the opposite sex that makes me want to crawl back into the woodwork. I work with women fine, and I have friends that I’m myself around, laughing, joking, and being the center of attention, but when it comes to being romantically involved, I freeze.
I’m not sure how many twenty-eight-year-old virgins there are in the world, but I can surely add my name to the list. In my senior year of high school, prom night was the closest I’ve gotten to sharing intimacy, and that’s only because there was a group of us, all having a few drinks, and our inhibitions were minimal. She and I climbed into the backseat of my friend’s Chevy, and the minute I slid my hand across the crotch of her panties, I ejaculated. I came without even being touched, and I was so ashamed that it made me withdraw even more.
Since then, I’ve come to the conclusion that when the time’s right and the teen girl is too, it will all happen naturally; until then, I pleasure myself through solo masturbation. A few times through the week, and always on the weekends, I will venture into video.apornstories.com HD porn movies and live out vicariously through those gay men on the screen. I’m always so fascinated by their boldness, the way they manhandle the sexual situation, owning the women with huge tits, and having them beg for more of their rough thrusting; I wish I could be like them.
Even though I fantasize about tender moments, the romantic candle-light dinners, the slowness of our fingers, unveiling the clothing from our bodies but it’s truly the hardcore acts that get my blood thumping and the palm of my hand sliding quickly up and down my hard shaft. I’ve been reserved and timid for so long that I’m more than ready to break free and become a bad boy type in the bedroom.
In the HD porn videos, I watch buff men with big cock, driving along a city street, stopping to ask directions, and ending up bending some hot babe over the trunk of his car, with her big boobs swinging and swaying in the sunlight; they enjoy the outdoor sex, with never a concern as to whether they’re being watched by voyeurs or not. At that moment, nothing matters but how good the intercourse feels and how they’re both going to be cumming in a rush of orgasmic excitement. Felt his huge dick softening while still inside of her and yet, still moving, hoping for the semi-hardness that will continue into a full growth spurt again, giving them both multiple orgasms from their hardcore actions.
With jeans pulled down around his ankles, her panties lying on the ground, and long legs wrapped around his waist, he is pumping his erection in and out of her wet vaginal area so fast, I imagine how much friction they must be creating. As I sit, jacking off, I know that one day it will be me, I’ll be able to live out all of those dirty dreams and be the macho type of male I know lives within me somewhere, but until then, I watch videos.
It’s probably a pretty sad thing to think about, my entire sexual life revolving around watching porn, but I really don’t mind it as much as others might think. There’s something so naughty about choosing whatever woman and scenario I’m in the mood for, from the categories like shemale porn videos and then playing with myself while dreaming it’s my own thickened shaft getting gooey with the creaminess of a beautiful woman, enjoying my passionate ways.
Just before I feel my orgasm happening, I think of the day when I’ll be unleashing my load into the steaming pussy of a female lover, finally losing not only my semen but also my life of being a virgin.